VA definition – Military sexual trauma (MST) refers to sexual assault or sexual harassment experienced during military service. Veterans of all genders and from all types of backgrounds have experienced MST, but trauma is not exclusive to the military.
YEP, that’s all true. But more importantly, we all need to know how to deal with trauma or when traumatic memories return.
Not a scarlet letter, the badge of infamy, or a mark of Cain
Often, those who experienced MST shut in tightly, all alone with the visual flashbacks, the fear of touch, and/or the smells. You know, the cologne or scent of alcohol on someone’s breath that will time travel a brain unconsciously and immediately back into that moment of fear. This reaction is primal and imprinted. Likewise, if you experience anything similar, your brain is provoked into its fight or flight mechanism.
You see, the problems arise when you are not in danger, but your brain still falsely senses it is. If you are not aware what the triggers are, then here comes the poorly timed anxiety attack. For this reason, we are considered crazy and painted as someone amplifying the event. If those judging were to experience a similar situation, they too would have their amygdala hijacked. Only by educating what happens to the brain on a primitive level can we help those of us dealing with the unwanted reactions and prevent overtaking PTSD symptoms in future victims.
In short, fight or flight will benefit us. But when our brains become hypervigilant it causes cascading issues like PTSD, anxiety, depression and more. PTSD by MST or any other causation can be minimized if properly treated, but this rarely happens. Let us start to change that.
My goal to squash traumatic memory
The inspiration here is not about making a ton of money. It is about making oneself valuable to humanity. I used to feel betrayed and desperately alone. No one wants to discuss trauma, not your family, not your friends, not your doctors, well, maybe your physiatrist or phycologist. Above all, any sexual trauma by nature and culture is considered taboo. But by not addressing it, these events will create a downward spiral in the mental health of those affected.
So, if I don’t share and bring awareness, I am part of the problem. Above all, I do not want others with similar experiences to feel like they are the only ones experiencing these “character flaws” of crippling anxiety, depression, rage, and self-medicating.
In the blog, I will share my problems with traumatic memories and what steps I have taken to regain my joy, optimism, and a sense of purpose. I aim to reach anyone who feels alone fighting this battle. We will explore my thinking process, people, and books that have helped. The Facebook support group will be there to assist as a resource and a place for others to post their successes and materials that have helped them. We can also discuss a topic or two during the week. Email me any suggestions on topics you would like to explore.
Come, read a few articles. If traumatic memories overpower you or someone you know this is the perfect place.
In the event you relate to this blog, MST and Me, you may want to attend the peer support led training.
